It took me a while to think of something that makes me truly uncomfortable. Not because nothing makes me uncomfortable. "Au contraire, mon frère!" There's a decent sized list of things that make me anxious, but it was tough thinking of something that makes me truly uncomfortable. I love using humor to diffuse nerve-racking situations, but this time I wanted to be honest instead of funny.
After coming up with heaps of things that make me only mildly uncomfortable, I realized the thought of sharing my life with a bunch of strangers on the Internet freaks me out. It's a nice little catch 22, because blogging is about sharing your life. However, I don't always want to share for fear of not being liked.
You're probably wondering why I even bother with blogging if sharing with strangers makes me squirm. Sometimes I wonder that same thing too, but sometimes we need to force ourselves to do things outside of our comfort zone. As cheesy as this sounds, there have been plenty of times in my life where doing the uncomfortable led to a great breakthrough and personal growth.
I'm definitely guilty of not sharing everything on this blog. The funny thing is, all the blogs I love the most share everything. It's a nice little catch 22. Now I'm a total goofball, but usually only my close family and friends get to see that side of me. Letting everyone see who I really am makes me plenty uncomfortable. Over the years though, I am learning to worry less about what others think of me. Maybe blogging has helped me at least a little. I suppose it's not all for naught.
I hope you'll like the nerd I am, and if not... that's okay too. Once a nerd, always a nerd.