Thursday, February 19, 2015

Snapshots From Arizona

Well... I haven't posted anything on this blog since last year. That doesn't seem that far behind us, but it really is when things have changed so drastically since then. Last October we still lived in Florida. A little over 4 months later, and we're living in Arizona with a baby who is getting dangerously close to being a one year old. I had no idea that time could pass so quickly.

I just wanted to share a few glimpses of our life lately. If you follow me on Instagram, then you may have already seen a few of these snapshots.

Who knew that piping hot drinks would be so popular in the desert? I am pleasantly surprised by the amount of choices we have when it comes to local coffee.  I'm excited to try this coffee from Press Coffee Roasters.

more local Phoenix coffee:

Our little one has recently taken a liking to books. Maybe he is his mother's son after all. Don't mind the Christmas book. He loves the Little Blue Truck books and his puppet finger books. Oh, and don't forget anything involving puppies!

Since moving to Arizona, I'm really enjoying our selection of grocery stores. I've been cooking quite a bit. Breakfast is my favorite meal of the day! There's nothing like a good breakfast burrito to start the day off right. Now if only we had some Durango Diner green chili to top off this meal. Darn!

We have an almost-one-year-old. I think I might cry! He's growing and changing every single day. It just blows my mind. Every day I remind myself to enjoy every single little thing, because I won't get these moments back. Lately this little one enjoys being outside, feeding the ducks, pushing dining room chairs all over the house, and eating cantaloupe.

Surprise! More food. I told you breakfast was my favorite. We recently moved into a rental house, and the kitchen is much bigger than necessary. I'm loving it. I've been getting a little OCD with organizing, and I finally fixed our spice jar situation with these free printable labels and these spice jars from World Market.

Moving across the country again has been a hectic thing, but we're slowly getting settled into our rental house. The living room is coming together nicely, and I finally purchased the reclaimed wood coffee table I'd been stalking at West Elm for quite some time. The coffee table "really tied the room together". (Any Big Lebowski fans out there?) It's fun decorating a new space, but boy do we still need quite a few things. I think settling in will be a slow process.

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So that's our life lately. Lots of food, enjoying our baby boy, and some furniture shopping.
Happy Thursday!

Monday, October 13, 2014

Reminiscing About Years Past

Where has the time gone?!

photo by Raychel Armstrong | if you need a photographer in Orlando, she is great!

Today I found myself reading through some of my old blog posts, and boy did some of them make me feel a little nostalgic. My husband and I have experienced so much change in the past few years, and we're bound to have quite a bit more change in the next year. We just had a baby for goodness sake. That will bring endless change into one's life. Welcoming change has often been a struggle of mine, and I'm always working on accepting it.

Even though there are times I miss certain aspects (living in Denver, for one) of our life, I wouldn't change where we're at now for anything. I am so thankful that my husband has a flying job that allows him to be home every night. That's almost unheard of in aviation. I also wouldn't change the fact that we have a sweet baby boy. Yeah, traveling isn't as easy as it used to be, but some day we get to share our favorite places with our curious little man. That's pretty exciting!

Chase and daddy in Winter Park, FL

This old post made me remember how much I love to fly...
although it's a less peaceful experience with a squirming baby in your lap. Ha!

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I obviously really need to read this post over and over again...

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Sometimes we just need to be grateful for the little things...

After reading some of these old posts, I can't believe how much life has changed. I find comfort in knowing that others have experienced big changes in life too. There are some great blogs out there that remind of just that.

I can't imagine picking up and moving overseas like Tara from A Brew of Blessings.

Lauren shares life's transitions on her blog Siddathornton.

Have you experienced big changes in life?
What were they?

Friday, September 19, 2014

Mom Realizations

If you're new in this neighborhood, I have been absent for a little while recently. One can never be fully prepared for how time consuming it will be to take care of a baby. Wow. Motherhood has been pretty amazing and exhausting all at the same time. No complaints here though. I love my husband and our boy more than I ever thought possible!

our good friend Raychel Armstrong took this picture
if you're looking for a photographer in Central Florida... she's your gal

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Becoming a mom makes certain things, like poop and puke, a part of daily life. I never thought some things, like car seat safety and pediatrician choices, would matter so much. I'm also surprised by how many things have fallen off of the radar for me too. I now understand how you can set food in a clothing store and only want to buy things for someone else. (Never thought that one would happen). I also now understand the importance of where we live, because education opportunities and cultural experiences will stem from that.

You can read all of the books out there, but none will ever prepare you for real life with a baby. It's sort of like college to the workforce. No amount of homework or reading will ever prepare you for a real life situation that calls for an executive decision with a baby in mind. At any given moment, all you can do is your best.

The most expensive and luxurious baby gear won't make you a better parent. It will just make your bank account smaller. As much as I want to give our baby the best, I also realize that he doesn't know the difference between brands. Choose your battles wisely. Splurge where it's necessary, and save where it's not. There are so many choices out there, and you don't need (even though you will want them) all of the baby things.

Mom instinct is a real thing. Growing up I was never much of a babysitter, and I'm an only child. Babies have always been such a foreign concept for me. I never much, if any, time taking care of a little one. However, when you have your own, you just know what to do. I'm amazed by this quite often. All I want to do is love on our baby, and I'm shocked at how quickly you're able to learn how to diaper and bathe a little person. You can't really mess it up too badly.

Speaking of messing things up, you'll learn to forgive yourself more easily. There just isn't enough hours in the day to do it all. Don't stress out over it, because you're doing one of the most important jobs. If I tried doing everything the way I did pre-baby, I'd be headed straight down the highway to nervous breakdown city! Prioritizing is your new hobby. Again, choose your battles wisely. Holding the baby wins out over straightening up the kitchen.

You'll never feel more grateful towards your own parents. This parenting thing can be tough, and from the sounds of it little worries turn into bigger ones over the years. No wonder my parents have gray hairs, ha! Seriously though, when I feel like crying over the thought of something bad happening to our baby, I realize the love that my parents have for me. I have a whole new appreciation for the roller coaster of emotions that parents are capable of experiencing. Whew!

I wouldn't change any of this for the world.
My husband and I are in it for the long haul now. :-)

Thursday, September 18, 2014

5 Month Catch Up

Our little one is already 5 months old. How on earth did that happen?! It seems like he just grew up overnight. Let me tell you, we've learned a lot in 5 months. He's teaching us new things each and every day. Mostly we've learned about how much love we have for this tiny human being.

2 months -----> 5 months
just like that

Last time I posted, our little one was just 3 months old. I shared some of our favorite must have baby gear items. Some of those opinions have changed a bit over the past couple of months. We still like both carriers but use the Ergo carrier more than the K'tan. The co-sleeper bassinet was also outgrown more quickly than we would have liked. We ended up moving him to his crib around 3 months, because we felt he needed the extra room. You live and you learn.

3 Months

+ first time rolling from back to tummy (see picture above)
+ you started sleeping in your own crib & on your tummy... talk about parental anxiety!
+ laughing and smiling are a couple of your favorite things
+ you roll onto your tummy but get "stuck" there since you don't roll the other way yet

4 Months

+ you have discovered your feet... they're fun to grab onto
+ peekaboo is one of the funnest games ever
+ blowing raspberries is a new discovery
+ you love anything with buttons, and you love to push those buttons
+ light up toys are a favorite as well

5 Months

+ you touch, grab, and feel everything
+ when we call your name, you definitely know we're talking to you
+ you are drawn to the littlest of details... like zippers on bags, buttons, and tags on items
+ we swear you're getting teeth... you are a drool monster and chew on everything!
+ you are starting to get your knees under you, and we think you will crawl in no time
+ eskimo kisses are fun... and mom is taking advantage of your love for those for now

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We can't believe how time has flown!
Speaking of flying, you have already taken two trips on an airplane.
That's a post for another time though.

I can't believe how much more fulfilled our lives have been these past 5 months.
Every day is a new adventure.
We love you, Chase!

Monday, July 21, 2014

Must Have Baby Gear

So our little guy is already 3 months old. Where did the time go?! During the past 3 months we've learned a few things when it comes to baby gear. We could have saved some cash if only we knew before what we know now. Some things have ended up much more useful than others. These are some of my favorite and/or most used baby items.

Must Have Baby Gear

ErgoBaby carrier -- We used our ergo during a trip to Michigan when Chase was about 7 weeks old. It was great for using in the airport. Not to mention it can grow with your baby. You have the ability to wear baby on your front and back once they're able to sit upright later. Right now this bad boy (or girl) is on sale thanks to Nordstrom's Anniversary Sale. You can get this Starburst ErgoBaby carrier for only $79.90 marked down from the standard $120. If we didn't already have one I would scoop this up now!

Baby K'tan 'Breeze' carrier -- I actually wish we had purchased this carrier when Chase was smaller, because you can wear baby in so many different positions that the ErgoBaby carrier cannot do. I also like how the Breeze version of this carrier is made from cotton and mesh, because it gets very hot in Florida while wearing a baby. Oh, and you can use a Bed, Bath, & Beyond 20% off coupon to purchase this!

Bob 'Revolution SE' Jogging Stroller -- In hindsight, I would have skipped buying the travel system and gone straight for this stroller. We learned the hard way and bought it later. You can buy an adaptor that your infant carseat clicks into, so baby can still ride in this as an infant. It rides so much more smoothly than our Britax B-Agile. Like I said, in hindsight I would have skipped the travel system stroller for this jogging stroller plus an umbrella stroller (which we have yet to purchase). We got our Bob stroller for about half the regular price during a sale at Babies R Us. We used our registry rewards on top of the sale for this big ticket item.

Medela Harmony Breast Pump -- This was a last minute purchase while traveling. I unfortunately struggled with engorgement for quite a while, and I desperately needed something to help with that while we were away from home. If you're planning on traveling with baby, this thing is a lifesaver. It's really easy to use in the middle of the night as well. You can use the Medela quick clean micro steam bags to sterilize the parts while on the go. This manual pump is also much gentler on the girls than an electric pump. That being said, I am blessed to stay at home with my baby and don't have the need to pump very often. This pump gets the job done.

Infantino Activity Gym -- Our little guy loved this from day one. Okay, maybe it wasn't exactly day one, but he's loved this activity gym for quite a while already. I sometimes get a few moments to myself while he stares and swats fish for a few minutes. We use this basically every single day. The great thing is this activity gym grows with baby. You can move the overhead portion, and it turns into a ball pit for when baby is old enough to sit and play. We may regret this purchase later, but I'm sure our son will love us for having bought this.

Arm's Reach Mini Co-Sleeper -- We had purchased a different bassinet at first, and it did not work out at all. Our poor little guy overheated so badly on the cheap vinyl padding, so we returned the first bassinet and bought this co-sleeper instead. It's very airy with mesh sides. We also purchased an organic cotton sheet for it instead of a synthetic that doesn't breathe. We never attached this to our bed, but I did pull it right up to the side of the bed next to me. Our little guy was literally within arm's reach of me throughout the night. He slept in this so much better than the first bassinet we had purchased, so we all slept (for a couple hours at a time) happier.

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These have been some of my favorites so far.
Who knows, maybe I'll add some other items to my must-have list in the near future.
Choosing favorite baby gear items has been such a learning process. 

What are some of your favorite things when it comes to baby gear?

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Chase's Birth Story

After dealing with a bad doctor for almost 9 months, I was ready to have our baby and never deal with that doctor again. I was so excited that labor had started naturally and on its own, because that meant not being induced. During labor at home, I continued keeping our doula posted with the progress.

this was later in labor at at the hospital

{ this story is long, if you just want pictures scroll to the bottom }

With a natural birth as my goal, I wanted to labor at home as long as possible. The moment you get to the hospital, I feel there is a tendency for staff to put you on a clock. Since I tested positive for GBS (group beta strep), there was even more reason for doctors to have me on a clock. They like to see the baby delivered by 24 hours after your labor starts to reduce the risk of infection to mother and baby. My total labor lasted over 30 hours, so I was thankful we could stay at home for early labor.

We talked about doing something nice for for the nurses and doctors, so my mom was in the kitchen making cookies when I noticed my water break. It just had to happen at the most inopportune time. My husband began frantically packing the last items for our hospital bags and even packed them in the car. My doctor had insisted on heading to the hospital immediately if my water broke. I knew that wasn't always necessary, and I still wanted to labor at home to avoid being in the hospital for an extended time. Again, it took some convincing since my husband wanted to rush to the hospital, but my gut told me it was okay to labor at home. Our doula assured us that everything was going well and that the bleeding I noticed was just my cervix thinning. It was nice having someone with birth experience to help comfort and reassure us both.

Eventually contractions were close enough that I started thinking we should head to the hospital. Our doula thought we could stay at home longer, but something told me we should just go. So my husband drove us to the hospital. On the way I actually started thinking something might be wrong, because I continued to feel gushing (which was just more fluid from my water breaking). My husband drove like a mad man, but we made it to the hospital safely.

We had pre-registered at the hospital, so that saved us some paperwork. Upon arriving at the check-in counter, we informed them not to call my doctor and that we wanted a midwife. There were no midwives that evening, so they assigned me a female doctor that was on call. We were taken to a small room to be checked, and my contractions were strong enough where I was needing to focus on breathing through them. I tried my best to stay relaxed and calm, and my husband was a comforting presence.

The nurses monitored my contractions to see that baby was doing well, and that gave me such piece of mind to know that he was doing great through each contraction. I mentioned that I didn't want an IV, so they installed a heparin lock that would allow them to administer antibiotics to treat my group beta strep. They stuck me multiple times trying to get a good vein. I had bruises for weeks after that!

My progress was checked, and they informed me that I was 5cm dilated! I was pretty happy with that, because it meant I was fairly close to transition. They wheeled us up to the labor and delivery room, and then my mom and doula joined us again.

I felt so empowered not calling my doctor, and I knew it was the best decision. That choice was reaffirmed when we met the doctor who would deliver our baby. She was enthusiastic, encouraging, and supportive; she was everything my doctor hadn't been the past 9 months. I felt at ease with her, and I ended up having a really great nurse too! Things were going better than I had imagined.

The hospital has the anesthesiologist explain things as standard protocol, but they didn't push anything. I had my birth plan stating that I didn't want to be offered any pain medications unless I asked for it. An epidural wasn't even an option in my mind. I just wanted to breathe through my contractions and do my best to stay calm and relaxed. The nurses never once pushed the epidural, and I never really thought much about it.

Thankfully the labor and delivery rooms have lights on dimmers, so we were able to keep a relaxed environment. My nurse was so supportive of me wanting a natural birth, and I'm incredibly thankful for that. I didn't want to be hooked up to the monitors, and they couldn't get the wireless monitors to work. Since our baby looked great, they agreed to monitor me at intervals so I could move freely in between checks.

I labored in positions I had been using at home, and I even brought my own birth ball and blankets from home to make me feel more comfortable. Our doula, Alyssa, helped with different positions to help keep me calm and comfortable. Once I finally hit transition, the contractions finally started getting really strong and back to back. That was the most intense part of labor. I remember Alyssa suggesting I sit backwards on a chair and rest my arms and head on the chair back. I think being upright helped the baby descend, but by that point I don't remember too much about what anyone said. I definitely went into my own space once I hit transition. My husband was at my head keeping me calm and Alyssa rubbed my back and reminded me to breathe and stay in control.

Contractions at that point weren't like anything I ever expected. They were definitely wave-like, and I found the best thing was to just focus on "getting to the top of the hill" and then "ride it down". With each contraction I remember thinking to myself that it's like riding a bike or hiking a really steep hill, and once I got to the top I could just coast. I could tell once I'd hit the peak and it was a coast until the next contraction hit. Alyssa had some relaxing music playing, aromatherapy, and I had a rice pack that could be microwaved for pain relief.

Transition dilates you from 7-10 cm, and I was hoping to be close to 10cm and push our baby into the world. The doctor checked me, and I was at 9 cm. She told me that breaking my water would speed things up and help me fully dilate. Imagine my confusion when I realized my water had broke on Saturday afternoon. She told me that sometimes your bag of waters can re-seal itself, and she thought that's what happened. I said go ahead and break my water if that would help me dilate completely. I knew the pain would get more intense once she broke my water, and I had no idea it would happen so fast. She broke my water, and I immediately had a painful contraction that had me feeling a little nervous.

labor got tough after having my water broken

After having my water broken, I couldn't manage to move as freely as before. I laid in the bed on my side and tried to keep my breathing under control. I kept feeling the urge to bear down, but my nurse said my cervix wasn't fully dilated yet. I needed to control that urge to push. That was most definitely the hardest part of my labor. I was 9cm dilated, and I wanted push so badly. She told me that when I breathe, I should release my breath like I'm blowing out a candle. Boy did I blow out a lot of candles! At one point I thought I might lose control, but Alyssa was amazing at keeping me breathing. My nurse Janene just keep reminding me to "blow out candles". I'm so thankful for such a great support team. I held onto my husband's hand so tightly, and I tried my best to stay patient, in control, and not push. It was by far one of the hardest things to do.

It seemed like my contractions had spaced out, and I finally felt like I really had the urge to push again. I asked for the nurse to check me, and I'll never forget how I felt when she said I was 10cm. I just wanted to meet our baby!

I never thought pushing would take so long. I pushed for about an hour and a half before our little guy made his appearance. My doula reminded me not to try and push baby out quickly, because that's when you tear down there. Yikes! I took my time and allowed this to happen slowly. After pushing for so long, I started to wonder if this guy was ever going to make his exit. I was exhausted from having started labor on Saturday. Come Monday morning, I was wanting to meet our baby so badly.

Pushing with contractions didn't come easily at first. I wasn't pushing really effectively, but I finally got the hang of it. The doctor was incredibly patient with how long it was taking me to push. There came a point where I wondered if I was going to actually deliver a baby vaginally. The doctor eventually told me that "some one's getting tired, and it's not you". That made me worry that baby's heart rate wasn't holding up anymore, so I gave every push after that everything I had. I wasn't about to have a c-section after all of that hard work, and it seemed like just a couple more pushes and our baby arrived.

I remember wanting to hear him scream to know he was okay, but he didn't scream right away. Apparently the cord was around his neck, but it was no problem for the doctor to remove it right away. My husband cut the cord, and then they put our baby right on my chest.

finally in my arms

He was so incredibly pink and squishy and perfect! After a little time he let out the loudest screams as if to tell us he was fine and healthy. I remember looking at my husband with the most love that I'd ever felt. It was amazing to finally hold this tiny human that we created. The love is indescribable!

After spending some time holding baby skin to skin, the nurses did some other checks on him and finally weighed our little guy. When they said he came out weighing 8 lbs 15 ounces and 22 inches, my jaw just about hit the floor. He was quite the big boy! Since he was so big and had no vernix, they ended up doing some tests on him to make sure he didn't have diabetes. He was perfectly healthy, no diabetes. I guess he just cooked a little longer than normal.

tall boy... just like his daddy

Actually going through with a natural birth made me feel so empowered and strong. It felt as if I could conquer anything after that. I was so happy to finally hold our baby, and it was a relief to be done with labor. We did it! I spent every second of recovery just gazing at our perfect baby boy, Chase Daniel.

welcome to the world Chase Daniel, mommy and daddy love you

Thanks to Dr. Escobar, our nurse Janene, our doula Alyssa,
and my mom (grandma) for being a part of our baby's birth!